` when.its.time, it.would.happen <33 ________

::my stories

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Came upon this website and decided to try out this quiz on my working style:

Your Working Style
You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.
You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

Suituable Careers:
artist
beautician
botanist
carpenter
clerical worker
computer operator
counselor
dancer
dental and medical assistant
designer
dietician or nutritionist
factory worker
food service worker
forester
gardener
geologist
marine biologist
mechanic
nurse
occupational therapist
optician
physical therapist
police officer
recreation leader
secretary
teacher
veterinarian or assistant

Hmmmm... Its seems rather accurate. I'm shy to strangers, but when I'm close with them, I will do silly stuffs infront of them. No more image to consider abt.
From the looks of above, it seems that I'm not suited to be an engineer? Oh no! I have wasted 6 yrs of studying! -.-

sometimes,WHAt.YOU.c.may.JUST-be.WHAt.YOUget *11/28/2010 11:18:00 PM

***

Just finished looking through all my previous blog posts. Realised I changed. But unsure is for the better or worst. This blog space would be a great place to store all the happiness and sadness memories that I have encountered. Its a regret that I've not been actively updating my blog in the recent years. Maybe I shld do a weekly or at least a monthly update on what happy/sad events I have been though.

Major events:
1) I was jobless for 6 mths. I left my job @ GAI as I found no motivation to go to work everyday. Colleagues were nice but somehow I just could not click with them very well (talk crap with them).

2) Went for a short holiday to HK for 6 dyas. It was a great trip except that there were a few arguements btw my aunt & mum -.-'"

3) Finally gotten a job @ STE thanks to Joyce Tay. If not I might be jobless till now.

sometimes,WHAt.YOU.c.may.JUST-be.WHAt.YOUget *11/28/2010 12:00:00 AM

***

Friday, November 26, 2010

There is so much I want to say in my heart. But I fear when ppl/ close frens look @ my blog, they will think "why likedat?". So I choose to keep them in my heart. I may look that I do not care how ppl look @ me, but deep in my heart, I know I do care alot how ppl look @ me, especially those who are close to me and those I love.

You may say that ppl see den they see lo. But cos I do not have a high confidence level of myself, I always felt inferior ( fat, short & ugly). Maybe I'm jus envious of those who are prettier and slimmer den me.

I do not dare to love anyone else (except my family members).
I fear rejections.
I fear for alot of things.
Maybe its my character that makes me to have low confidence level.

This sucky feeling is back agaian, esp when I'm alone and all those -ve thoughts just appear in my mind (shoo -ve images shoo!) It just feel terribly horrible. Its like I know you like something alot but I know that you can never own it (% of owning it is = 0.000001%) = almost 0%.

I myself also dun understand myself well too. Like it den get it. Why think so much. Later if its taken up, dun regret hor... And usually (so far >90%), I would just give up. There is this saying short term pain is better den long term pain. So I have to tell myslf that this is the best reason to tell myself to give up harbouring the impossible.

I realised as 1 get older (or wiser), there will be more and more concerns and things to consider before making/ decision what to do next.
I want to be the old me.
I wan to be the naive me.
I want to express out all my thoughts.
I just want to shoot out wadever I'm thinking.
I want to be more confident. ( Dunno when will that ever happpen)

Solution to all these problems: Nil
Ways to hide/ run away from these problems: Go to slp

sometimes,WHAt.YOU.c.may.JUST-be.WHAt.YOUget *11/26/2010 11:28:00 PM

***

After reading my fellow colleague's blog, I realised that I didn't blog for like 1 to 2 yrs. Time really passes...

20 Sept 2010 marks the 1st day of my new job @ STE. Colleagues were rather nice. I got a new colleague (Yi Zhong) who joined the same team on the same day as me (Lucky I'm not alone). Joyce was in the same dept as me, so I will have a good fren there together with me.

Its like been 2 mths since I started work. Time passes very fast. The project manager who taught me & yz left the company and we have to handle the things that he have taught us within 1 mth. Even though I can't say I'm coping very well, but I can say that @ least I'm able to do my basic job scope.

My colleagues were nice ppl. Maybe initially I was shy and they looked serious. But after 2 mths working with them, I realised that I'm the only one going ard disturbing ppl and crapping with them. This makes our job more enjoyable too.

1) LP: Manager of the team
2) VC: Nice guy. Willing to teach me SQL and allow me to bombard him with questions when I'm in doubt.
3) TG: He may look fierce, but he actually very friendly. I could crap with him @ times & he gave me a nickname: Xiao Wang (sounds so old lo!)
4) JL: Also quite a serious guy. But when he is sian/ tired, he will go ard looking for us to chat for a while b4 going back to his desk to complete his remaining work.
5) JT: My uni friend. We also have the same character (very sotong) and so far we are the closest in the dept.)
6) CC: More serious guy compared to JL. Too back I'm not able to know him better as he will be leaving us soon.
7) YZ: Both of us came in the same day. He's a nice colleague. And sometimes I would disturb him and he's fun to bluff. But still need to know him better.
8) EK: New colleague and will be joining the MT soon. Didn'y talk much with him.

Above is the summary of how are my new colleagues like @ STE. Maybe will update in more details when I get to know them even better.

sometimes,WHAt.YOU.c.may.JUST-be.WHAt.YOUget *11/26/2010 11:11:00 PM

***