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* 21st nov 86
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
Warning: Please stay stay from this entry if u are in a lousy mood.
Haven been blogging for quite sometime.
This is the 1st after after 2 or 3 weeks tat I didn't took leave...
I told myself not to take leave unneccessary as I need to repay back money to my friends who helped mi in forking out money 1st to buy the digital cam. Thanks all!
Everday was a tiring day almost everyday. Work has been piling since I took off last thrus and fri. Till now I have not completed my work =X
Yesterday was the day I was waiting for. Friday, which I looked forward for it since Wednesday! This means tat I could have a longer rest day. Everything was fine till evening, I received a sms. Okay, the details of the sms I wont be saying it out over here.
If you are reading my blog, I really wanted to ask you y till now then u tell me how u feel? I might not be very sentistive to ur feelings. But at least if this problem existed for quite sometime, you shld have told me earlier. Maybe I shld reflect on my actions.
I seem so lost yesterday. Looking for u trying to explain to u through the phone, U don't want. I and even turned up near ur hse just @ the staircase but was just rejected by just an sms. Do you know how terrible I felt? I wanted to know izzit that the friendship between us will be solved if we come face to face or even talking over the phone 2 settle this problem. It seems that now I couldn't do anything. I felt so damn useless. Talking abt it through sms does it solve the problem? Either you are me would misunderstand wad each other will be saying. U/I do not know the mood of the person. Mayb for a certain word, I might find it harmless, but to u it does have a different meaning/mood to it.
Seriously, wad can I do now? Staying @ home facing @ the 4 ceiling thinking that the problem can resolve by itself or think abt the problem and make myself more miserable or upset?
Can you tell me wad shld I do?
Be upset & crying over the problem?
I told myself to be strong. Don't be a crybaby. Even if I'm terribly hurt inside my heart, I also shld show a brave front instead of sobbing on the bed till I doze off.
I do really wish that there no more additional problems will add to my burden. I'm very scared that I will just snap off anytime.
Pls someone tell me wad shld I do? I really sick and tired of solving problems 1 after another.
Maybe thats my fate.
*4/29/2006 06:45:00 PM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
Went for the SMU interview today. I was in a blur state. It seems like I was in dreamland. I might be due to the effect of the extra strong panadol that I took it this morning.
Went inside the interview room and start talking w/o using my brains. When asked abt current affairs, I was like... OMG! Gave excuses for not reading newspapers. Asked me why a jump from electronics to accountancy, I answered w/o my brain functioning. Nxt they asked me abt what kind of job I'm in and what do I do in this job. What is the most interesting part and boring part of the job. I was stunned. I could list out the boring portions but was stucked when was asked abt the interesting part of my job.
Fell asleep immediately after lunch. Slpt for approx. 3 hrs. Was studying 1/2way through preparing for the test for sat when I suddenly noticed my wallpaper of my hp. It was a Chip & Dale pic. It jus reminds me of what this pic symbolizes when I 1st placed the pic as my wallpaper. So much things had happened recently and I'm now unsure whether it still symbolizes the same meaning as b4 or the meaning behind the pic had weared out gradually.
I'm going to the dentist tomorrow. I dread going to the dentist since young. I will cry whenever a tooth needs to be remove. Till now, I still have the same feeling. Hope I wun lose my face tml 2 the polyclinic.
*4/20/2006 05:41:00 PM
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Monday, April 17, 2006
Haix.
Why does everything in this world requires $?
I'm going to be nuts soon.
Jus thinking the repair cost of my digital cam and where to get the same model as its a rather old model?
At a point of time during work I feel soo tired, tired of life. tired of thinking of money problems.
I felt as though that maybe its a wrong choice to maybe thinking of getting into uni.
By working I can lighten my family's burden.
By study I add even more burden to them.
But its my wish to continue studying.
Mayb things just doesn't go the way I wish it 2 go.
Can someone tell me wad to do!!!
I'm so vexed!
*4/17/2006 08:43:00 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
So much thigs happened in just 1 day.
-2 promises broken.
-Scolding from my dad (he's being unreasonable).
-Can't find my freaking cam's charger.
By just thinking the cost 2 repair the camera, mayb I shld just get a brand new one of the same model?
But money got me into 2nd thoughts.
Even though there are bad things that happened yesterday, my day was also mixed with some happy moments with Tammy and my relatives. We had dinner together. It was fun.
*4/15/2006 09:33:00 AM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
Yeah, I'm shortlisten for NUS! But whether I can get in or not, its another matter. I have to go through a test of 2hrs @ 10am on 22th April.
But reallly gald that NUS gave me some hope. But if I do get a place in NUS, I also would not know wit to choose. NUS will be a totally new environment for me. None of my friends actualLy applied of there as they tot it would be impossible to get in. If I realy do manage to get in, I will be all alone there. But for NTU, I do have friends that are enrolling there. At least I wun be alone over there. Hehe...
*4/13/2006 09:25:00 AM
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
Hip hip hurray!
I got a letter from NTU!
I got into Electrical & Electronics Engineering!
I was soo afraid that no school would accept mi...
But now I'm so relieved!
Yeah!
*4/08/2006 12:31:00 AM
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Monday, April 03, 2006
I sprained my foot on sat after submitting my application to SMU.
But I continued shopping despite my sprained foot.
The nxt day i woke and realised my foot was swollen like pig's totter.
After a day of rest, the swell subsides.
With the swollen I had yesterday night, I got leave from work today =)
Tomorrow I have to get back 2 work as the swelling is much lesser. =(
*4/03/2006 10:17:00 PM
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